Monday, August 11, 2008

Blue

When I'm in a mood like I'm in today, I try to tell myself not to write a blog because no one should be subject to my ridiculous venting and no one likes a party pooper. But, sometimes, my wanting to just get it out gets the better of me.

I have not been myself lately. A lot has been going on in one month. I moved, I stopped talking to someone who I thought I could never stop talking to, I made new friends, I have been trying to stay busy, I've been broke because of my move and charging up stuff on my credit card, I've been changing up some medication that I'm on which has been making me a little loopy, I've been trying to exercise and lose weight and I got my termination letter for work.

I'm just stressed.

On top of all this, my apartment is a complete wreck because I can't figure out where things should go or which style I should go with and therefore it's all in complete disaray, which is driving me insane.

I got my termination letter from work on Friday. My last day is September 30th. I am not looking forward to this. I've been at this company for 4 years and I hate starting over. Not to mention, my company pays ridiculously well and I'm really afraid that I won't find something similar out there. So I'm terrified.

My cat has started back with her old habits of using the bathroom on the carpet, despite the litter box being clean and it makes me about want to cry. I refuse to have a smelly apartment and don't know what I have to do to stop this.

And today I got a notice that some new activity has been posted to my credit report. When I checked it out, I realized it's a year old situation that I have been having with a doctor's office and they do not want to play nicely. I want to reach through the phone every time I'm speaking to their accounting department and strangle someone.

It just hasn't been a good month for me. I've been trying to act like everything is cool, but I think it all caught up with me today.

So yeah, I've just been a real stick in the mud. I'm sorry.

P.S. And if I don't find the perfect curtains for my bedroom, I think my head might explode. :(

3 comments:

LC said...

It'll be okay! Let me know if you need help finding a job. I was helping Erica from miles away when she was playing with the idea of moving here. And you can always do something temporary (retail) until you DO find the right job.
Let me know if I can do anything to help :)

noble pig said...

Oh man that is a lot of crap to be dealing with all at once. I hope you find peace and order soon, doors and windows will open.

drwende said...

1. Call the vet and ask what to do about the cat's urinary habits.

2. Shove stuff into closets and otherwise out of sight, so that it can't bug you.

3. Get someone to help you put together a smashing resume.

Seriously -- I don't even know you (found your blog from Foreign Circus Life) and I want to come arrange your furniture and tweak your resume (so either you're charming or I'm creepy). You'll be fine as soon as the cat stops peeing.